Naruto not only broke HIS journal, but MINE, too! How does anyone do
that?! No...wait. I really don't want to know, do I?
Don't worry. I forgave him. He did have to buy the new journal and
owes me dinner later, though. *Yay! Free food!* It's intensely hard to
stay angry with Naruto. *Chokes.* Well, it's hard to stay angry about
the same thing...
Mom and dad are glad I'm back, and I can tell they're more worried
then ever. It's easier to pretend everything is normal when I'm
yelling with Naruto or Ino about something insignificant. Heh...or
just listening to them yell at eachother. *Stupid Ino-Buta and
Naruto...GIVING ME HEADACHES WHEN I'M SICK!* Sometimes I can't find
the energy to end the spats (the cold didn't help). (Ino, are you
doing any better?? I can bring you some soup, if you want. Mom is a
miracle-worker in her own right.)
Sometimes I forget that the nin way isn't the ONLY way to do things.
Mom fixed my cold without anything more than a bowl of hot soup. She
refused to let anyone else look after 'her baby girl'. I think she's
happy that I'm still that--two worlds, right? It takes a while to
figure out which I'm supposed to be in, and I think that scares them.
That I don't know instantly that I belong in the world they're in;
'cause I don't, not always, anymore. Tsunade-shishou and Naruto and
Kakashi-sensei and everyone are just more...real. It seems impossible
that mom and dad's perfect life and perfect shop exist just inside
No, not perfect--just...completely different. Mundane, I suppose. I
can see how it would frighten them that the things that happen outside
of our home, our shop, that they don't quite know or understand those
things. Mom doesn't know what to say to a daughter whom chose blood
over candied hearts. I know they are proud...I just know also that
they are worried about it all, all the things they don't quite know.
I wish I didn't make them worry quite so much. I know very well it's
not a pleasent feeling.
Anyways, I need to go. Naruto owes me dinner! And, hey, mom and dad
are beyond ecstatic that I'm actually going somewhere with my friends
(somewhere that doesn't involve lots of life-danger, I mean), doing
something OTHER then studying or...staring, I guess.
I need to see who else we can drag along. Being surrounded by other
people is nice, nowadays. I think Ino can go *assuming she isn't too
busy with her boyfriend*, and she's bound to find plenty of others.
*Has she ever paid for her own food?? Her cell is so...subserviant. Lucky.*
**=screened; inner Sakura.